Things have seemed to get away from me lately. I’ve been dealing with a CFIDS flare for several weeks … in waves. Yesterday was another day of nauseous migraines on top of this flare, and last night I caught myself sighing in frustration as another wave of nausea joined the pounding in my head. Not again!
When I’m in a CFIDS flare, my entire body aches as if a huge semi is driving back and forth over me. When I’m feeling like this, I often wonder if I will ever feel normal again.
So, what is “normal” anyway? About 20 years ago, normal for me meant working 50 to 60 hours (sometimes more) each week while still taking care of a big house, carting my children to and from their activities, and exercising at least 5 days per week. These days what I call my “new normal” involves getting plenty of rest and monitoring my daily activities so that I don’t overdo.
I once heard a friend say that normal is just a setting on the clothes dryer. Did that ever put things in perspective for me! It helped me understand that normal is different for each one of us. Some people work Monday through Friday at a “9 to 5” job; others work nights. Many drive cars while there are those who ride motorcycles. Some individuals hardly ever smile, but there are also many people who smile no matter what is happening in their lives, good or bad.
Today I feel somewhere between the green smiley face and the red one, but no worries. I am still thankful that the God of all creation has made us a wonderful promise in this Scripture verse:
He who was seated on the throne said, ‘ I am making everything new!’ Then he said, ‘Write this down, for these words are trustworthy and true.’ —Rev 21:4
Some day we will be with Him in a new body completely free of pain. Everything will be new!